The one about being excited

So November 9th it became official. The best part about our relationship is that we are focused on God to lead us. I pray that God strengthens us in our relationship and guides us as we move forward.

The one about happiness

wow. its amazing what a walk by the lake can reveal. today i felt like really really happy. God, I put it in your hands!! yay!!!

The one about questions

am i right? like, am i right in doing what i do? am i right to act how i act? is it all justified?

The one about defining life

So I am attached. I mean its an amazing feeling but the timing isn't the best. I'm sure God is in control of everything and if anything is meant to be then God will show me. PRAYING FOR ALOT OF THINGS!!!

The one about rededication

I find that refreshing yourself is something that must happen periodically. Today marks my rededication to everything. I will also need to shake some of the things that I don't want in my life. I will be better. :)

Now on the brighter side, Its November which means that Christmas is around the corner. I love Christmas. It is the best holiday ever. So now I just need to hold on until then.

The one about thinking

So thus far this year I have learned a decent amount about myself and ironically thinking is still not my strong suit. oh the joy of impulsiveness is beginning to not be as excitingas it was in the past.

The One about mistakes.

I feel so dumb right. I really need to think things trough before I open my mistake driven mouth. I care so much for her and, whether its on purpose or accidentally, I can't even see that she is uncomfortable with this situation. Why in the world did I even bring that up? She's a strong girl but it still doesn't make me feel like this was a huge mistake. I am truly sorry. I need to learn to think my thoughts out clearly becasue I truly care for her.

The one about the truth

To tell you the truth, that is one of the most amazing feelings. that closeness, that security, its one of the best feelings in the world.

The one about dreaming

dreaming to me is wishing something but without being read. its a way to have hidden desires from the world. and plus, dreaming never puts pressure on anyone except the dreamer

The one about stillness

Ever wonder why time seems to stand still?? or maybe even why everything seems to move around you but you can't do anything about it?? I do. This is how I have been feeling lately. And I'm not bitter but I have seen better days. Emptiness is something that comes every once in a while but when it hits you its like being blind-sided by a car. You don't realize it until its too late. And in this period of stillness in my life, I have been able to smile at the things around me. Not everything but many things around me.

The one about the night

"Rome wasn't built in a day". Obviously there was night time shift for the builders. After wondering why sleep is such a rare commodity, I came to a weird realization: Everything that is worth remembering has happened at night. Whether it'd be a walk or a rendezvous with Campus Safety, the moments lived so far this semester will always have an impact on our lives. Whether you will never live it down or whether happiness became a welcomed guest or even just the random evenings spent at T.O.L., these night events have now given us something to talk aout in the morning when the construction of our lives goes back into motion.

The one about the emotional ride

I have come to realize that the saying "Life's like a roller coaster; It has its ups and down" really is an understatement for what goes on inside our heads. Being in a spot where your closest friends are in different places makes you always realize that things are ever-changing. Wishing things would happen or be revealed is an everyday activity, even though actually doing something is completely unheard of. And all these things show that emotions are in control of everything. Letting emotions begin to control how we think makes it difficult to stay firm to what we actually want to reach. Ups and Downs don't even begin to describe emotional rides.